The Personal Search For Differentiation

[scameter]

It is my personal hope for a differentiation in science, something that logic and science find in existence that is not explainable, that is different that is on the verge of spiritual, that can be felt by the individual, that one can be released into and placed reliance and purpose in, for that is so what i want, and is the main reason for my study of science and philosophy. i so much so want something else, something more that can give me purpose, a settlement in freedom, peace and meaning. i hope all of what i am saying makes sense, but to be honest if it does not that is understandable, because i do not fully understand it myself. i know how i wish it to feel, because i have felt how i hope for my physical life to be, in a dream of mine. but, how i felt in it is rather hard to put into limited, physical words, unfortunately. this topic may appear futile, merely a personal log of mine, but i hope that elaborations and personal insights can be added to it, because this search as i describe is the main goal of my life, and i hope that you my friends can offer a means for me to find it, or how you yourselves have possibly found it. :)

[VossistArts]

I can relate to the feeling. I wouldnt mind telling you this story of mine what youre describing, but Im not sure if it would be a good idea or not. Im going to have to think it over. I can tell you though, that I found some of what your talking about by opening up new awareness in Mind and activating and experience some of the more subtle parts of a body like the nadis and chakras. Ive not worked with these things to a developed state at all, but however I have managed to show myself that there is indeed more to all of this and ourselves than meets the eye, the more relaxed I became. The belief that we have that all that we know and see is the full extent of it, is horrible. Really its super common and an easy mistake in thinking to practice. I mean, unless you really stay focused on the idea that all that is presently known to you, is absolutely not the whole of existence and experience that you can explore, life seems a little pointless and futile. Maybe you need to shake yourself up. travel. go to places where peolpe think and live very differntly than you do now. Try india or some place like that., At some point something will jolt you into a new perspective that is so tangible it feels as though you have been physically displaced somehow from the old. THEN you will know. you will know that there is more even without having gone there yet.
the most recent sort of success ive had with moving my perspective around has been with managing some degree of quieting of my thoughts while im awake and conscious. The world experienced more cognitively and less linguistically/symbolically is vastly different to me than the world ive made the world into in my past. It is direct and everything flows together, rather than seeming seperated. expose yourself to as much mystery, and adversity as you can manage., make it like a pirates adventure. heh